Friday, April 22, 2011

Entry 17: Heaven On Earth, Jimmy Carter's Fail Better, & Keeping "Hope" Close to the Heart

Dear All:
Winter has taken its last inhale and we are all waiting patiently for its release! The blossoms are starting to reveal themselves, but seem anxious that Jack Frost could reappear one more time this year. We look for the sun's happy smile each morning and are again welcomed by the relentless-- cold grey air that will not budge (as crazy as San Francisco in the month of July). The best part of spring not coming-- is that it hasn't arrived yet.

As we thank god for heaven on Earth (did you see the children, animals & flowers today?) and also thank him for kicking our ass every day (love those failures cause you learn those superior life lessons), to do & be better and lastly, promise to keep "hope" very close to the heart. If we promise to keep "hope" close to the heart, what could possibly go wrong?

Today is Earth Day, one of another 364, right? I'm like, "Today is Earth Day?", " Come on, isn't every day Earth Day?", "Please!"

Even though winter is lingering, there are many dear little buds cuddling the branches. Our red tulips are preparing for their commencement ceremony on the east side of our yard (all 200 planted, thank you Daddy!) Some have opened their petals for the sunshine & then close them at night for the stars. I call this heaven on earth no matter what.

We all know Mother Nature has had about enough and her protective rage has begun. So while keeping our eyes & hearts tuned into the news abroad, maybe we can do a little  here & there on our own.

It could mean 1) taking your garbage bag in the car & picking up garbage (which was fun one sunny afternoon on Railroad Avenue in Copiague, NY last week when I had a babysitter.) 2) It could mean (whatever your flavor) making it our business to "be informed" on how local legislature is managing $ to protect the coastline, rivers /bay/ocean water or wildlife in our community or 3) learning how to "break" down the paper recycling that requires twine when put out to the curb. It seems to be this very big task for me, but for goodness sakes Kristen, Get Over it and do it, right? Sigh.

I am on Twitter/Facebook - as much as this Mommy can be, yahoo! Love it.

"Save the Landfills"--Kristen

"Mommy, what planet are we from?"--Brady Shaw

I am amused by failure. It is a huge part of my story. How many times did I get fired you guys? Seriously? I think I got fired because I needed to get fired, right? Getting fired made me work harder & harder and keep working. Failures really make you stop, think and awaken. Nothing is as good as that humble pie, BAM! right in the face. Thank you for that humble pie because I needed it.

No one knows more about humble pie than elected president of the US in 1976 Jimmy Carter. He kept on his path of helping others and there was no looking back for him.


Jimmy Carter, (of  The Carter Center www.cartercenter.org)  elected president of the US in 1976, presided over a country crippled by ongoing int'l crises & the worst economic recession since the Great Depression. He was soundly defeated in the 1980 election by Ronald Reagan after one term in office. After his presidency, Carter dedicated himself to humanitarian projects, both in the US and abroad. In 2002, he was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize. 

"This world is not about me, it is about everyone else."--Kristen

I recently purchased a pocket sized book entitled, "Fail Better," by Herter Studio. The cover reads, "Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail Again, Fail Better." I am the queen of failure that I can thank ADD for & my formerly misguided ego!  My failures kicked my ass & taught me how to keep going & keep going which is a lesson right there! That's what I'm talking about!

"I have not failed, I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."--Thomas Edison

I Get Over Myself when challenges present themselves & make me uncomfortable which means I am in a growth spurt."--Kristen

"I Get Over Myself when I see how failure has been part of my journey & helped me accept things more realistically."--Kristen

As I sit here cheerfully typing away on loving kindness & eternal light, I am in denial (my favorite place) about current events & local news (the local news is a challenge on the south shore of Long Island at the moment!).

I will always remind myself to keep "hope" close to the heart. I am part of a generation of chaos--yes, but of much more hope & promise. Do you all see why denial is my favorite place? "Hope" is an idea I will continually chase, nurture & thrive on.

I very am sure that people are dear, kind & good. I see it over one million times a day. I am hopeful that we will all strive to be better if we just, Get Over Ourselves Please, starting with me!

Today we visited the Holstville Ecology Nature Center which is an animal rescue center, zoo & green house. There are bob cats, rescued hawks & bears (to name a few). As we breezed by the owl cage, there were peacocks with the most vivid blue feathers I have ever seen. This amazing bird was lounging on his bird house, like a regal king. He was majestic. I was in awe! I said to the woman standing next to me, "Don't tell me heaven does not exist on earth, because there it is." She totally agreed, yahoo.

"Just about every time I look at a stranger in the eye and then smile, they smile back. It is very dear."--Kristen

"Get happy everybody, because this is as good as it gets."--Kristen

Thank you all for reading in your busy days. Enjoy heaven on earth, cause it is right outside our windows. Let's keep "hope"' close to our hearts because "hope" is all we have at the end of the day, right? Let's pray for the women, children & animals who need our fierce protection at all times.

With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Entry 16: Loving Until It Hurts, The Dalai Lama's Simple Message & My Ego Beat Down

Dear All:
All is very quiet at the moment, chaos feels like it is going to break open at any moment for some reason. The sky is a cloudy dark grey and the wind is screaming across the roof tops. I love the wind but it sure has a mind of its own lately. The tree branches are growing tired of the cold and wishing for the sunlight's warmth. Spring will be here just as soon as it can. 


My research and devotion to learning about the path to peace and love is still maddeningly fun. The simple truths of his holiness, The Dalai Lama are giving me great clarity on where I belong in this spiritual vortex and the tools I am using to "Get Over Myself", sigh. Can we get a trademark here? "Getting Over Myself", hands down is the best cocktail ever. It is better than any pinot noir I've tasted from Northern California's Russian River! That is saying something.


From what I see here in my very small world, there is much to be done in helping others. I suppose it begins with ourselves. To go within for the answers. To go inside of ourselves instead of blaming others, to be mindful of our thoughts and take responsibility for actions. It sounds good on paper, but some days are easier than others, let's be honest. Helping ourselves is the first step to helping others. 


Mother Theresa says it best. In sum she means, keep loving & loving until it hurts, and then there is still love. This is so true! I just love that. The moment I learned that life is giving and nurturing and giving more love that you every thought possible, would bring such profound happiness? (aside from parenting the very bumbly Brady Shaw) It keeps you, dare I say, in balance? Balance is not a word I would ever use to describe my life and here it is. Never say never, right? 


I love Twitter and its immediate gratification. I am pumping out daily tweets (this week lots of Buddhism for some reason) with each cup of coffee, I go go go! Here are some tweets to perk us up:


Twitter/Facebook


"Humility is truly a gift!" - Kristen


"The act of nurturing endlessly is the path to peace and happiness. We are so in the moment of loving kindness, we forget to be empty."- Kristen


‎"Those who are free of resentful thoughts surely find peace."-Buddha


This week is Buddhist intensive with a little bio on the courageous and humble Dalai Lama. Living next to China is not easy. 


‎Bio of Dalai Lama
His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso, is both the head of state and the spiritual leader of Tibet. He was born on 6 July 1935, to a farming family, in a small hamlet located in Taktser, Amdo, northeastern Tibet.  At the age of two the child, who was named Lhamo Dhondup at that time was recognized as the reincarnation of the 13th Dalai Lama, Thubten Gyatso.  The Dalai Lamas are believed to be manifestations of Avalokiteshvara or Chenrezig, the Bodhisattva of Compassion and patron saint of Tibet.  Bodhisattvas are enlightened beings who have postponed their own nirvana and chosen to take rebirth in order to serve humanity.



I find this all very interesting that I have no particular faith. How can I be so passionate about loving kindness and with no formal education or faith? I guess it doesn't matter because its what my heart is telling me. I'm surviving I guess. I enjoy his Holiness's simple way of expressing his thoughts. I find Zen Buddhism confusing for some reason. I have a crush on the Dali Lama in this entry, don't I? He is helping me understand the most meaningful message of all - to be kind. 

"If you have a particular faith or religion, that is good. But you can survive without it."-Dalai Lama


 "My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness."-Dalai Lama

‎"Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible."- Dalai Lama

"Getting Over Myself" is hands down the best cocktail ever! In all of my conflicts, ego flare ups, and misunderstandings, I am looking over my shoulder for that ego waiting to take me down. My ego wants me to appear self righteous, self serving and mostly ridiculous! Oh thank god for the "ego beat down" because I need a relief from myself at all times. 


Twitter/Facebook 


"All day long I am dismissing my ego, I'm like, "Beat it."-Kristen


"I get over myself when I do not react if someone I love is struggling and angry. It is their emotion, not mine!-Kristen"


"I am getting over myself today by staying calm through chaos in general and removing my self importance when my ego flares up w/ my family."-Kristen


"Why is it so hard to hear the truth about ourselves? What is so wrong about not being perfect! I am so flawed thank goodness."-Kristen


‎Thank you all for reading in your busy days. Let's try and keep our perspective light while trying to understand why the world brutalizes itself. Are people just hungry and cold out there? Please pray for the children, women, and the animals  as they need hope, promise & mostly warmth. I guess we all do.


 "I find hope in the darkest of days, and focus in the brightest. I do not judge the universe."-Dalai Lama


With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen




Monday, February 14, 2011

Entry 15: Love Lights Glow, Acceptance is the Key to My Problems and My Tears of Maya Angelou's Tender Tale

Hi All:
The sun is a dim dark yellow sphere high in the foggy sky these days. The chilly air is blowing through our mittens and the snow drifts are melting now with gnarly spots of black slush. Spring's air appeared late this morning and I have to say, it was a magnificent refreshment to us all. Since early December we've had a total of eight snowstorms. Whatever nature brings us here in New York, we are happy to take on! 


Today is Valentine's Day and it is the day for all love to abound, to share, to twinkle and remind us that romance is a state of mind, depending on how you look at it. I sourced these proverbs below (www.valentinesquotes.com) and posted them early this morning on Twitter, my favorite love fest. 

"Candle light, moon light, star light, The brightest glow is from love light." ~Grey Livingston

"I need the starshine of your heavenly eyes, After the day's great sun." ~Charles Hanson

"When love is not madness, it is not love." ~Pedro Calderon de la Barca

Why is love so interesting and important? Is it the enjoyment of giving, nurturing and providing the constant flow of love? Is it the way in which to openly and honestly receive/accept love? Perhaps it is learning how to be in the constant state of loving kindness and while willing to accept love on an unconditional basis. I like that! 

Laurie S. has been one of my closest friends since 1968. She is mid way through her fifth year of clean time with Narcotics Anonymous. The "program" is very effective and has worked miracles with her personal growth and development. Laurie and I speak of our journeys often and recently we spoke in depth of relationships and living and loving and forgiveness and somehow acceptance came up. 

She said, "One of the steps is, acceptance is the key to all of my problems."
It knocked me down because of its relevance to ourselves and how it can assist in solving our petty conflicts while nurturing our most important relationships.

I had to search for the definition of acceptance. Acceptance is a person's agreement to experience a situation, to follow a process or condition without attempting to change it, protest, or exit.

So "acceptance is the key to my problems" can apply to; 1) ourselves, 2) our strengths without guilt, 3) our weakness without shame, 4) our acceptance of someone else's feelings, (good and bad) 5) acceptance of our lives, (if not good then you can learn how to change it), 7) acceptance of others reality, 8) acceptance of our own reality and why we feel like we do, 9) acceptance of the state of the world and the list could really go on, you know? The relevance of "acceptance" and its power provides great clarity for me. Thank heavens for clarity!


Thank you Narcotics Anonymous for helping my dear Laurie and millions of people who are struggling from addiction each minute of each day. Yahoo, Laurie you will always be a rock star!

I have to share a small story of hope and love that I experienced while listening to the Diane Rehm Show in 2008, (which is produced by NPR member station WAMU 88.5 and distributed nationally by NPR) and her interview with the lovely and amazing Dr. Maya Angelou. 

Dr. Maya Angelou is one of the most renowned and influential voices of our time. Hailed as a global renaissance woman, Dr. Angelou is a celebrated poet, memoirist, novelist, educator, dramatist, producer, actress, historian, filmmaker, and civil rights activist.

Diane Rehm has a distinctive voice. While she is introducing Dr. Angelou for this interview, there is sheer joy and delight radiating from the car's sound system. 


During this interview, this utterly sweet and lovely tale unfolds on how a young man is walking down the street while on the way to taking his own life, this was 100% his intent. Just before his desperate action, the elegant and proud Dr. Maya Angelou happened to walk by him. As bright as the sun and as peaceful as the wind, she elegantly says to him , "good morning". 

Somehow her vibrations permeated his hard and confused shell. It shifted his direction in a heartbeat. I believe that he felt a ray of hope from her. Right then and there - he decided to continue his magnificent life. 
Even on our bad days, our lives are magnificent, its all how you look at it. And that was it. He wrote her a letter to thank her for saving his life. 

I drove my car that day, with tears streaming down my face (with my chubby Brady sleeping in the back of the car), thinking how the act of kindness, saying "hello" or "good morning" can bring life to the most fragile soul out there. 
Its the kindness of people that I find so moving! 

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." Maya Angelou

"Flowers are like human beings . . . they thrive on a little kindness." -Fred Streeter
 


I love all of your feedback, it is so important for me to grow and learn here, so keep it coming so I can get over myself please?

Let's continue to pray for the women, children and animals of this planet who need our love and protection at all times.

With Love and Sincerely,

Kristen

P.S. I am nothing without you guys.
























Thursday, January 20, 2011

Entry #14: Twitter--The Love Fest, I Will Love You Til The Cows Come Home and The Great Master Joseph Campbell

Hi All:
Life is vibrant and quite bright here these days and not for any particular reason; just sort of humming along. The amazing "powder" finished falling this morning and it is spectacularly beautiful. The trees are giggling and bristling from the gusts of wind and the brilliant sunny snow crystals remind us that we are smack -- in the middle of a "harsh" winter! 


I am surfing twitter like long board champion surfer, Laird Hamilton and I am loving the mammoth swells of activity! It is quick and fast and when I have a thought or idea, I just zip zip and it is out there. It is such a Love Fest (our kind of unconditional love Fest) too. I am quite delighted to be receiving "I am following your  tweet" emails that have been revving up my creative writing engine!   I have been blessed with interest from  an online life coach from Missoula MT, a vitamin health nut as well as Dr. from NYC, and a radio host from Vancouver BC, to name a few. 


You can be sure that I am stalking Deepak Chopra (my favorite Hindu) and the wonderful Jenny McCarthy! I also really enjoy Russell Simmons from www.globalgrind.com , can anyone say Def Jam records? He is a is hip hop mogul turned yoga devotee.


So if you guys don't mind a bit of redundancy, here are some sling shots from my Twitter account - "Get Over It Please", account kkshaw47.


  1. Getting Over Myself is the best cocktail ever, which means nurturing everyone and everything around me, I am so lucky!
  2. When I remove myself from interpersonal situations, everything becomes very clear to me.
  3. My intent is to nurture my husband when he is struggling, instead of becoming stressed and making it about me.
  4. Getting Over Myself is becoming thoughtful and mindful of others that requires non ego spiritual guidance, what a relief from myself!
  5. The world is about everyone & everyone else, what can I do for you today?What do you need? We're on it.
  6. Get Over Yourself when you always do what you want to do and are content due to some one's boredom or sadness. 
  7. Get Over Yourself while defending yourself for all of your bullshit all day long - even when you are right!
  8. Get Over yourself and tell your mom/husband/child/friend that you love them and that they are beautiful , because you do and they are.
  9. Get Over Yourself and stop believing your own lies, sorry we are all over it.
  10. Get Over Yourself for being angry at someone because they are angry at you first (within reason), sorry that is bullshit.
  11. When in conflict, why not turn inward and think of our responsibility? Why blame others? We're over it.
One of the dearest twitters I read yesterday from www.lorimoreno.com  was, 


  I will love you till the cows come home, Love Quote. -Posted on Twitter by Lori Moreno


Isn't she so dear for that? I will never get over that wonderful saying, because it is true!


Lastly, one of the greatest lessons in my life (where architecture, religion, poetry, writing, etc.) all came together in the most perfect circle for me was the great master and ground breaking Joseph Campbell. No one compares to his happiness and clarity, period.


Joseph John Campbell (March 26, 1904 – October 30, 1987) was an American mythologist, writer and lecturer, best known for his work in comparative mythology and comparative religion. His work is vast, covering many aspects of the human experience. His philosophy is often summarized by his phrase: "Follow your bliss."[1]


  1. Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.
  2. I don't have to have faith, I have experience. 
  3. Life is without meaning. You bring the meaning to it. The meaning of life is whatever you ascribe it to be. Being alive is the meaning. 
  4. One way or another, we all have to find what best fosters the flowering of our humanity in this contemporary life, and dedicate ourselves to that. 
Darrell and Jenny Ford, do you remember watching the Bill Moyers tapes at my parent's house in 1989? We were following our bliss all the way back then!


As I sign off and finish the best cocktail ever, Getting Over Myself, (with is so much love to give, people to listen to and laughter to share) I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for reading Get Over Yourself in your busy days, how busy is 2011, incredible right?  This sounds contrived, but the more I love and listen to my family, even in conflict, ask them what I can do to love them better (this goes for Finney too, oh my dear that Finney!) , life just keeps getting better.  Maybe it is Finney's unconditional love that started all of this in the first place. Its all how you look at it maybe...


Please let's pray for the children and animals, who need our love and protection at all times.


With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen


PS You are all amazing today! Oh, let's not forget beautiful! 







Thursday, December 30, 2010

Entry #13: Little Truths, Barack Obama's, "of Thee I Sing" and Rising Above the Ego Clutter

Dear All:
The New Year's Moon is resting powerfully in the black sky at the moment while drawing out all of our truths, justices and hopes for the upcoming year. We had some magnificent blizzard this holiday. Our roof's glaciers are thawing and air is growing more mild as the clock ticks to 2011. 


It was an exciting, but busy holiday season. Our families joined together for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day which was wonderful. Friends and family were close by for the occasional bitch slap and hysterically fits of laughter. Cheers to the family!


We all know I am a happy person and try like hell to see the good in things, but it is just that Christmas leaves me with very little breathing room, literally. I love to shop and give presents, it is awesome, but the job becomes intense toward the end. The gift wrapping requires such finesse and flexibility by the end I am crippled from bending over on the ground, one day I will do it on a table.


I shopped like my mother and sister, I never stopped until the job was done. I took care of Brady (birthday is coming up too), purchased all of the gifts for my Diva mom and my sweet but sometimes salty sister (love that about her she is very funny). I did not stop until I got all of Toddy's beautiful presents ( I shrunk his favorite zip sweater so I really needed to pull that down for the team). I  was so excited about his gifts that I plumb forgot about Todd's stocking treats. 


I did have a sweet baby duckling ornament wrapped for him, but then I needed to fill it with more sugar plumbs I was stuck. What about a screwdriver? socks? handkerchiefs? well none of that was actually going to fit IN the stocking. So I went to my favorite Hindu (again and again if you get tired of him leave it in the comment box please), picked up several cards (Manifesting Good Luck cards) and never looked back. When Todd opened his stocking I made him say the cards to me, and it was really fun because they were all right on target and very true. Love to Get Over Myself, it is so necessary, gotta say!


I acknowledge my emotions and act upon them in a way that enhances my relationships.


When I recognize some one's admirable attributes, I openly show my appreciate and gratitude.


I compliment and praise others which enriches both of our lives.


What I like or dislike about other people reflects a similar quality in myself.


I regard everyone I meet as an equal - with sensitivity and respect.


I honor and respect everyone on my path.
Deepak Chopra


This particular Christmas was extra special because the lovely and talented Sarah Boyle joined us who (one of my three awesome nieces) gave Brady, Barack Obama's "of Thee I Sing, A Letter To My Daughters as one of his Christmas gift's.
Sarah shared her appreciation for this book when she gave it to Brady and I have to agree with her. 


The message is an honest and loving letter from a father to his daughters. I thought these ideas should come from parents to children, children to parents, brothers to sisters, all of it to everyone. Get Over Yourself if you are not sending the message of life out there, which is, loving kindness bundled with joy with a smile on top, let's have the flow of positive energy happening at all times please! We need it thank you very much! Sarah, thank you for sharing this book with Brady and me too! 


He asked them in the most loving way,


Have I told you that you are creative?
Have I told you that you are smart?
Have I told you that you have your own song?
Have I told you that you are strong?Have I told you how important it is to honor others' sacrifices? (going to have to blog about this right? please remind me)
Have I told you that you are kind?
Have I told you that you don't give up?


Lastly, I just sit here in the dark (again) in awe of the world's tragedies and magic. I shall always search for the earth's positive energy wherever I can find it and the people who live in its center and deep in its vortex. I will always try and rise above my mind's ego centric clutter (sorry I am human), try to stop and finish a thought when my ADD is making me short circuit. I want to learn how to listen (mostly), learn (from others) and deliver on a moment's promise. 


Thank you all for reading Get Over Yourself in your busy days. *Please remind me to honor other's sacrifices. This is huge for an upcoming blog of a chapter!


Moving forward, here we go! Need more bandwidth mommy! 

Please let's pray for the children and animals that need us, more than we will ever know.

With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen

P.S. You are all awesome!















Saturday, December 4, 2010

Entry #12: Feeling of Joy, Heaven and Nature Sing!

Hi All:
This twilight's December evening could not be more romantic. The sky is a light and  streaky dark grey with cold craggy branches that pricker the skyline. There is remains of a snow dust from our recent flurry that has set all the Christmas lights a twinkling. The winter's night and days illuminate the joy of nature, which is heavenly in every way.  


Joy is an under used word. I do not hear it often, (when people are expressing themselves) but I see it in people's eyes when they are in the company of people they love and when with their animals. 


While in the crush of Christmas, we have the nice songs that we hear very often round town and everywhere else. What is your favorite Christmas song? I love "Silent Night". "Joy to the World" is a good one too because of "heaven and nature sing".  I have been singing this my whole life but it never really dawned on me until I opened up my holiday card from Patricia Luzzi of  (www.isisessentials.com). She nails these ideas and visions every single time. Thank you Patricia!


On a dim note today (12/15/2010), there has been an devastation at our local beach this week (Gilgo Beach, our swimming and surfing backyard). Four beautiful women lost their lives along our beaches due to very unfortunate circumstances. The situation has left this community in a state of disbelief and sadness. Helicopters have been swarming from my house to the beach and back to airport (just behind my house) looking for another missing woman (but now that theory has been put to rest, I think). Our hearts are broken for their families and everyone wishes they were there to help those girls who were so cold and afraid and lost out there.


As we say our tiny prayers daily and as Adele Reese Bisagni (one of my most important spiritual guides), once said, "I dial direct." And when we get them on the line we say, oh dear spirit (wherever you are) thank you so much for all that you do, all the time. Thanks for these mittens that fit Brady (but don't match, who cares get over it)! Thank you for all of my friends who are my family (no matter what, always and forever) thank you for keeping us warm and mostly for giving us all the laughter- all these years! Honestly can't thank him enough for that.  


Nature always comes up in these love discussions but it provides the most dramatic impression, for me.  Even though the trees are bristling from the bitter cold, they always seem to provide warm cover to the birds and for the critters that sleep deep inside of them. 


I do not have any curtains in my windows so I am always looking and searching for the next marvelous happening. The  laws of nature run like clock work. It is supposed to be like this, laws of nature are absolute. Right? Right. The sun's brilliant rise and the morning's long drawn cardinal's chirping to dusk's final call. I will never tire of nature's abundances. 


Here are some words (of our poets are know for sure) that convey that heaven and nature sure do sing, how lovely:


"Each season has its own wonder, it's own special place, and
     purpose in the pattern of creation. -Unknown





The sun does not shine for a few trees and flowers, but for the wide world's joy."
                                                                                    - Henry Ward Beecher





With all the joy and heaven and nature singing there has been a lot of chaos and holiday preparation. I got over myself at least 1 million times this week, it was great because I always need to get over myself. 


All that I can do is keep the pace going on the path to light (in my moments of denial)  because it is Christmas (a wonderful time in life), do my work, love my family (who are my friends too) and keep my thoughts and heart in the right place. 


Thank you all for taking the time to read in your busy days. Pray for the animals and children who need us in so many ways.  


Please all be very well.


With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen




Monday, November 22, 2010

Entry #11 Denial (My Favorite Place), My Father's Message, and Loving As A Constant State

Hi All:
I am sitting here and feeling very grateful for the Autumn day in front of me (perfectly mild breeze with deep orange and red leaves dancing from one branch to another). I am excited and relieved to have it made to and from Barcelona in one piece with Brady and mostly thankful to my state of denial (my favorite place) since it keeps me in a calm place with chaos and uncertainty swirling all around me.

Denial is my favorite place (is it living in the present maybe, is that what a Buddhist would say?) since it gives me the tools to cope with upcoming events that have me in a jitter.

Events such as the possibility of adopting a newborn baby and having no idea when or how it is actually going to happen, preparing for a slightly larger family just as I reach my comfort zone or how about this: submitting a book proposal on Get Over Yourself Place to get the message of this blog out there and see what happens. Hopefully these dreams will manifest. These certain dreams do require some denial. Why is that?  Because these kinds of dreams require much more bandwidth! Ha ha Mommy.

I am so proud of my denial mechanism because I know when I am doing it. I train my thoughts to not even think about what will come next. It greatly reduces my anxious state of mind.

I have a great example of this, here it goes, hope it is not too long,

Last summer we vacationed on our boat for ten days with Kooky who was 18 months old at the time. I said to my mother in -law, while loading the baby car seat on to the boat, "I am in such denial about this trip in every way, I have to live in the present or I will die." Meddi knowing me pretty well shook her head and said, "I get that totally". Sure enough on that very day (while burning from Montauk Point to Block Island), there are eight foot waves crashing on me, the boat and Brady in his little car seat (boat felt like a tin cup). This proved that my underlying anxiety was valid, and denial (my favorite place) helped me cope with this type of situation that I had no control over. Everything was fine but there were a few moments of helplessness and then intense prayer.

When I look for messages; whether it be a sad story in the news (I always think well instead of becoming fearful, what is the lesson here and how can it become an inspiration on some level?) or swirling birds outside my window at 5am or a message on a delivery truck, we think when we see them, and say, "No, it can't be, I am silly", but then you realize it is REAL while your brain is processing it your soul connects to the thoughts as well.

This August, while driving down the beautiful country side road of Route 110 (not!) here in Long Island in the super hot heat and dusty light blue sky,  and right in front of my car is this big, loud seventy foot delivery truck with very bold white and evergreen colors (I shall never forget) it read:

KANE is ABLE
Be Kind
Be Careful
Be Your Best Self

I am sorry, but I've never seen a Mack truck with my name on it, much less with words of being nice and kind, right? I am not crazy am I?

That (for me) was a direct dial from my late father and it was heaven talking at its best. As I am reading it, I am so sure that these words are for me to understand or feel for that matter. Cause in this world you better be kind, you better be careful and you BETTER be your best self, is that too much to ask ? Thank you Dad for that one.

The best way to think of my late father and deal with my grief was actually (not denial, my favorite place), finding a way to remove myself and the feelings associated with losing him with his own happiness. In a way, like Getting Over Myself right? Did I remove my ego, is that possible? I began to feel happy for him and accepting of his transformation into another place of light.  I have no idea how I came to this conclusion but my father's death was somehow beautiful for me because he was so relieved. Oh I love that one! Everyone has their own journey with loss and grieving and I understand that too.

I really cannot believe that I sit here and write on my diary every week about all things; unconditional love. The more I learn to love thyself and nurture others (even when they may not be loving back for some reason) that is all that I can think of or do. I feel like the less judging and comparing and even criticizing others and MYSELF has brought on positive spiritual AND physical changes. Cultivating this constant state of loving has been so rewarding. My heart sure feels good too!

Here is a perfect proverb from my Dream cards,

"The mind determines what's possible, The heart surpasses it."
Pilar Coolinta 

An elderly women wearing a Red Cross cape passed a very small and tiny sticker to us as we waited on line to enter the Gaudi Cathedral (the most stunning structure ever with distinct rainbow beams of light inside, so remarkable ) in Barcelona last week that said :

For Love of Others

I thought, she seems like the happiest person in the world. She's been standing here for how long, ten hours or more? She is still pleasant and smiling.

There are many great spiritual leaders, authors, teachers and texts that translate unconditional love, but there is nothing more than experiencing it

I am all over the place today (the Full moon to blame again and again) but I know that you will all forgive me somehow and Get Over Yourselves! He He I love you guys.

Thank you all for your conversation and support. I know we are all so busy. God bless the children and the animals. They need so much hope, I guess we all do.

With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Entry #10 In All Things of Nature, There is Something of the Marvelous

Hi All:
The temperature has dipped here in NY, the skies are clear and the leaves are beginning to crackle which means that winter is booming on in. And I say,  "Bring it:, because winter is so very dramatic and intense and those creamy and thundery clouds in the sky do not disappoint me, ever!


The message found me last week while shopping at Whole Foods here in Long Island and thank god because my head is spinning in so many directions I am surprised I am sitting here talking to you guys. 


The card found me first (there are no mistakes) and then I researched iconic Neil Young who finds his church and solace in his backyard, The Redwoods of San Mateo County. The cherry on the cake was revealed during a conversation in my kitchen, with my dear friend Cindy Dreher who just returned from the spiritual vortexes of Sedona, Arizona. 


This card is what kicked off the idea of Nature As My God. 


In all things of nature there is
something of the marvelous.
  Aristotle


The loving and funny people of this earth move me that is no question. I have to agree that there are some awesome cathedrals, fancy mosques and temples that will take your breath away. But time and time again I am in awe of the earth's sun light, raindrops, the chubby clouds, the screaming thunder, the temperature's heat and frigidity and the songs of the soft wind. I mean to be part of the nature and weather that exists here is something of the marvelous - thank you Aristotle. I am always like did you see that? 


I am so happy that I am a person that can  appreciate it, and say, "Oh my god did you see that red headed wood pecker fly by or Brady did you see that spider web?"  or my sister will say, "You have to see the silvery moonlight it blinding me and it is midnight." For me and many of us I hope we respect and adore the waves that roll in and out of our beaches, the dusty dirt roads that lead us to the thickest forests, a snowstorm's silence. I see a whole lot of God right there.


When I decided to nature worship on this week's blog I did a little research on the man  himself, Neil Young who is a poet and iconic song writer. He too has deep faith in god's work of nature. He says very simply,


 “I'm not a preacher, and I'm certainly not a good example, but I have my own feelings about God. I'm kind of a nature guy. My cathedral is forests, or the prairies, or the beach.”



I mean Neil Young has always been on the menu for music for all of us, but when I heard him share that with Charlie Rose this year in fact, I thought well of course we are in the same church.


Does nature provide a spiritual energy? My very dear friend Cindy Dreher experienced this first hand on her trip to Sedona Arizona. She went on a shaman/Indian vortex tour and what was asked of her what she worshipped she looked at those dynamic mountains and red rocks on her landing and said "nature". We all grow and search for the calm light in side and to find it in our atmosphere is again, something of the marvelous, thank you Aristotle.


There is so much to be thankful for on this living earth, just look outside and stop complaining that we are not perfect or something is wrong or not like someone else, Get Over It. Nature is perfect because it is not perfect, right? All those mistakes made some kind of beautiful. Or when people complain about the weather, I am like, "what"? It is supposed to be raining cats and dogs didn't you figure that out? There are no mistakes. Just cool challenges to take us down so we can get back up. Look at how nature gets its ass kicked all of the time and it just keeps on thriving and growing. We could learn a big lesson from nature each day.  


Nature has and will always knock me right on the head with its beauty. Nature teaches me to get over myself with every breath that I take. All day long nature is telling me, "Look at my rich red colored flower petals", or "hey down there look at how I breathe life into the air all the way up here with my branches? "Look at what I am raining all over you today so your bushes will stay happy and perky." 


Loving nature is a gift, I have no idea how I discovered it like I did. But I am so thankful for it. 


And to conclude our message today, I found a quote from the endearing and the truly amazing Joseph Campbell (no one like him, never will be)


The goal of life is to make your heartbeat match the beat of the universe, to match your nature with Nature. 


Nature gets a bad wrap on TV but we all know it is going to out smart us all when the time is right.


Thank you all so much for being my followers and participating and reading in your busy days. God bless our children and animals.


With Love and Sincerely,
Kristen